
Two of Thailand’s most famous exports: chillies dry in a papermaker’s mold in Bo Sang, the papersellers street outside Chiang Mai
As I write my book of explorations through southeast Asia earlier this year – in search of paper and surprises – I am bombarded with sensory flashbacks. These days I’m writing of Thailand. Again my skin burns as it did when I was there at the hottest time of year; I taste the searing savory dishes available at street markets and tourist restaurants; and smell jasmine garlands and underwashed foreigners at guesthouses.
Every morning I keep up with online work and paint every afternoon. Then write a thousand unpolished words every night. My notes are fleshed into raw narrative that links encounters and a trail of clues from cultures two thousand years old or more. Only after the first draft’s complete will I refine my writing further. Every day I experience the same terror as I sit down to the keyboard: “I’m not a writer,” I think. “I’m an artist. What the hell am I doing?” Then I scan the scattered phrases I’d jotted in notebooks, often while riding pillion behind a motorbike driver. They bring me back to roads through mountains and isolated villages, to conversations with hilltribes and noodles spattered all over my guides. I forget I’m not a writer, and just write – as long as it takes that day.




What a fascinating blog. I can espcially identify with the ‘but I’m not a writer’ syndrome – I feel like this writing or photographing, that somehow I’m not expert or sophisticate enough. I wouldn’t worry, I enjoy your writing style, and I’m sure it’s going to be a fantastically interesting book.
You are a writer AND an artist…..
Beautiful
Ah but you are a writer, Ebriel–and 1000 unpolished words every day proves that. (Graham Green, according to Michael Korda, uncapped his fountain pen every morning, wrote precisely 500 words, recapped the pen and put it away–work day completed. (He also wrote 500 perfect words, Korda claims, and I of course believe that.)